Today is a dark day

Sure, the sun is shining. The kids are currently eating ice cream in grandmas kitchen. And then here I am, sitting in moms spare room feeling lost and lonely watching reality t.v. Im currently off my meds because it was new and it was making me crazier. That was med try number 3. My husband said he thinks Im better off the meds besides klonopin for the worst times. Im scared to take the meds and scared not too. Today is dark but theres always tomorrow mamas.